by
Kraig J Rice

TABLE OF CONTENTS

Bonnie Rice- healed of thyroid problems
Elmin Raymond Babcock- healed of gall bladder disease
Kraig J. Rice- Healed of the flu
"Healed Of Bone Cancer" by Mrs. Calvin Joy
"TO Heaven Or To Work" By Mark Buntain
"Receives Dual Healing" by Elizabeth Anglin
"Healed Of High Blood Pressure" by Vera Traffanstedt
"Infant Healed Of Epilepsy" by Renee Campbell
"Woman Healed Of Bladder Ailment" By Carl Lach
"Angela Is An Answer To Prayer" By Ronald V. Parisi
"Delivered Of Plantar Warts" By Julie Balmer
"Health and vitality restored" By Mrs. Tom Misiewicz
"Healed of Cancer" By Bobby
Healing From Painful Repressed Childhood Memories by Anonymous
The Healing of Memories by Agnes Sanford (from Guideposts Book)
The Fire or the Scrap Heap? by Arthur Godfrey (from Guideposts Book)
A Place For You by Doctor Paul Tournier (from Guideposts Book)
Man Is Not Alone by Everett McKinley Dirksen (from Guideposts Book)
Testimonies of Healing from the Pentecostal Evangel Magazine(s)

INTRODUCTION

Here are some testimonies of divine healing. Each one is from a credible source. I have listed some personal testimonies here. Also some from past issues of the Pentecostal Evangel Magazine of the Assemblies of God. The same God of love who healed me and the rest of these folks in times past is the same God who can heal you now. His love for you has never changed and His healing power has never changed. Won't you seek Him for your miracle?

Faith is saying
Yes to God

Bonnie Rice- healed of thyroid problems

My wife, Bonnie, suffered with thyroid problems for 18 years or so. She had to take a very high dosage of medication. She had taken different kinds of synthetic "thyroid medication" but with no lasting results.

One night in 1984 at about 2 a.m., after I had went to bed, she sat up praying and praising the Lord in our living room by herself.

Then Jesus Christ decided to pay her a visit. All of a sudden the ceiling of the room seemed to light up as the presence of the Lord entered. His brilliance illuminated the entire room. She was engulfed in joy and peace.

He walked toward her. She was not frightened. He never said a word to her but His presence was reassuring. He reached out and gently touched her throat area where her thyroid problems were. Bonnie did feel some pain as the Great Physician did His surgery. Bonnie just relaxed and let Him do His work. When He was finished He left without speaking anything to her. Bonnie is His child. He loves her.

The next morning Bonnie was excited. Up to this point our general circumstances had brought us kind of low so this healing was a real boost for us emotionally and spiritually. Bonnie was sure she was healed and asked me for my advice. I told her to keep taking her thyroid medication, but to expect a reaction from it since she was healed. She got the reaction to the medication, went to her doctor, and got his diagnosis that she was totally well.

That was a long time ago and she was healed from it for the rest of her life. Praise His Name! He completely and instantaneously healed her thyroid gland and she never had to take medication for it again.

Is there anything too hard for the Lord?

Seek the Healer
And not the healing

Elmin Raymond Babcock- healed of gall bladder disease

Elmin Babcock, my wife's father, was hospitalized in 1984 in Lodi, Calif. with very severe gall bladder disease. In response to prayer God worked a miracle of healing and healed him in the hospital instantaneously. After prayer he had gone in for surgery but the doctors found everything in perfect order.

The doctor asked Elmin about it. Elmin told the doctor that it was God who healed him. Telling doctors about God was Elmin's ministry! The doctor said it was only the second time in his entire career that he had ever seen anything like it. God is so good.

Kraig J. Rice- Healed of the flu

In 1967 I attended Bethany Bible College in Santa Cruz, California. One Sunday night I went to one of the local Assemblies of God churches in the area. An evangelist who had the gifts of divine healings was holding a meeting there. He was praying for the sick and since I had the flu (influenza) I wanted to be prayed for with the hope that I would be healed by God.

The evangelist wanted each of us to go to the altar and pray first before we got into his healing line. So, I knelt at the altar, and started praying. I was praying for my healing when I felt a warm glow seem to come over me there. Some evangelist's call this feeling "healing heat" but at the time I did not know anything about that.

I then got up from the altar and went and stood in his healing line. Then it came time for him to pray for me as I stood before him. He had the gift of knowledge and looked at me and said, "I am not going to pray for you."
I asked him, "Why Not?"
He looked at me in the eyes and said, "Because you have already been healed." He said that because he had the gift of knowledge.

Then I remembered the warm glow down at the altar and figured out that that was when I had been healed. I went away from the church service that night totally healed of the flu. I was rejoicing in my heart that a problem that was big to me was not big to God at all. All God sees is small problems...

Security is not the absence of danger,
but the presence of God,
no matter what the danger

Healed Of Bone Cancer by Mrs. Calvin Joy

"IN 1972 I had cancer which resulted in radical surgery followed by 28 radiation treatments. Even with the treatments, the doctor told me it could come again. He was right.

In 1978 my doctor found reason to take more X rays and a body scan. He told me I had bone cancer and immediately sent me to a radiologist who scheduled more radiation.

I was heartsick. I felt I couldn't go through the treatments again.

I read James 5:14-15 over and over, and obeyed what it says: I went to my church where I had my pastor anoint me with oil and lay hands on me and pray for my healing. God healed me instantly.

The next day I went to the hospital at 10 a.m. as scheduled. The doctor decided to do some more X rays.

I waited and prayed. Then he told me, "There is no evidence of cancer now. I'm confused." The X rays showed nothing on them. There was no need of radiation treatments.

I was tested again more than 2 years ago, and no trace of cancer was found. It has now been 4 years since the Lord healed me. I am eternally grateful for the power of God."

Written by Mrs. Calvin Joy, Phoenix, Arizona

(Endorsed by Pastor John W. Everett, Faith Assembly of God, Phoenix, Ariz., who added: "Mrs. Joy's testimony has been a continuing inspiration to our church. She has every evidence of being in great health. She works regularly, sometimes up to 12 hours a day. She attends church regularly and shared with me that her medical expenses in 1981 were zero.")

This article quoted from
THE PENTECOSTAL EVANGEL, February 27, 1983, page 19

Living for Christ
Makes life
Worth living

TO HEAVEN OR TO WORK By Mark Buntain

"Last February I was in Dimapur, North India, on the border of Nagaland for the dedication of our new Bible school.

V.G. David, the general manager of our International Correspondence Institute (ICI) program, had gone with me. One evening just before we retired, Brother David said, "Look, I have a lump on my side. I can move it around from side to side."

I said to him, "Brother David, when we get back to Calcutta, you're coming into the hospital, and we're going to take that lump off."

"Oh, no," he said. "I've had it a longtime. It doesn't bother me, and I don't have any pain."

"No," I said. "We're going to remove that lump."

When we returned to Calcutta, he was admitted to our Assemblies of God hospital. On the day of the operation Dr. Ben Elisha, also a pastor in Telegu, telephoned me from the operating room. "Pastor, we're all in tears up here. We have Brother David open on the table, and he has cancer everywhere— in his stomach, spleen, and pancreas. There's nothing we can do. We're sewing him up."

Brother David is one of the most valuable Christian workers we have in India today. He was one of the leading engineers on the great Rajasthan Canal which, when completed, will be the largest canal in the world.

Upon completion of his contract, Brother David came to Calcutta and took over the management of our ICI program. We have a cumulative enrollment of 300,000 students; currently more than 100,000 are engaged in the program. Brother David has done a masterful job with ICI. Our hearts were broken that he was so tragically ill with cancer.

After the operation his health began to worsen rapidly. When it was obvious we could do nothing for him, we flew him to the Tata Center, a well-equipped cancer research hospital in Bombay. The doctors said they would like to operate, so Brother David was exposed to the hardships of a second surgery. On this occasion they verified that indeed he had cancer and there was nothing they could do. They gave him 3 months at the most.

We then brought Brother David back to Calcutta. A great man of faith, Brother David said, "I refuse to die. God has too much work for me to do in this ICI ministry, too many souls to be won for Christ."

In his wonderful faith, he daily fought on. Brother David was to return to Bombay for chemotherapy on a Monday. On the Sunday night before, a group of us gathered around and had prayer with him.

On Monday morning he was on the plane going back to Bombay when suddenly he felt very warm inside, and he said, "Jesus is healing me. I'm getting well. This is wonderful!" Until that hour he could exist only on soups and liquids, but immediately his appetite returned. When a hostess came by serving breakfast, he took a tray. He ate the entire breakfast and felt fine. When he reached the Tata hospital the doctors examined him and said, "Mr. David, something phenomenal has taken place. We can't find any cancer. Stop all your medications. You're fine."

Brother David came home rejoicing, and on Sunday the congregation praised God for the marvelous work He had done. Somewhat weak but gaining in strength, Brother David went back to work at ICI.

Three months went by. Suddenly he began to feel stabbing pains in his back. The cancer had recurred and was beginning to eat away at the base of his spine. Soon the bone structure became spongy, and he was unable to stand up. Finally Brother David was confined to bed. He was in such excruciating pain that he would cry out in the night and awaken his neighbors.

One of our elders in the congregation in Calcutta, George Sylas, has great faith and is a real man of God. Brother Sylas came to Brother David's home and said to him, "Brother David why don't you stop fighting this sickness? Accept it and give praise to God. If it's time to go to heaven, you're ready to go. Aren't you?"

"Yes, I'm ready to go," he replied.

"And if it is God's time for you to get up and go back to your work, then go back to work," said Brother Sylas. "Together let's just praise the Lord, one way or the other, to heaven or to work. It is still all in God's time and in His hands."

As Brother David began to worship and praise the Lord, his pain left. Day by day he grew stronger. Finally he was able to get out of bed and walk around the room. On his birthday he said, "I want to go to church." He went back to church and has regained enough strength and health to be able to return to his ICI work.

We are thankful for the additional time God has given to this faithful servant."

This article quoted from
THE PENTECOSTAL EVANGEL, January 18, 1981, page 15
MARK BUNTAIN was an Assemblies of God Missionary to India at that time

"Listen! The LORD is not too weak to save you,
and he is not becoming deaf.
He can hear you when you call"
Psalms 59:1

Receives Dual Healing by Elizabeth Anglin

"AT THE age of 67 I had been feeling ill for several days. I felt I needed to go to church and request prayer for my body.

The pastor asked if there were any present who needed a healing touch from the Lord. When I went forward, the pastor and others prayed, and I felt the touch of the Lord. I have never felt so relieved and wonderful.

After I returned to my seat, I realized the cataract from my eye had fallen into my hand. It looked like a little seed with legs attached, which were the blood vessels. This was the spring of 1978. The cataract had been growing for at least 2 years. The doctors had been waiting for it to become ripe enough to perform surgery.

There is a small scar where the cataract was. Later the doctor asked me who had performed the operation. That gave me a chance to tell him that God can do anything.

The day I was prayed for I went out to lunch with friends. As we waited to be served, I began to choke. My friend helped me to the rest room where I began to expel fluid from my lungs in spurts. This was a great relief, as I had been having trouble raising the fluid in the past.

I thank God for the wonderful way he touched me."

This article quoted from
THE PENTECOSTAL EVANGEL JANUARY 23, 1972 page 14
Written by Elizabeth Anglin, Oakley, Calif.
(Endorsed by Pastor John M. Collins, Assembly of God, Brentwood, Calif.)

Approaching God on your knees
Will keep you in good standing

Healed Of High Blood Pressure by Vera Traffanstedt

"FOR 12 years following the birth of my second child I suffered from extremely high blood pressure. Often I was unable to work for weeks at a time. I spent much time and money for doctors and medication.

For many years I took six pills a day and extra ones when the problem worsened. Three days without medication would put me into heart failure.

Then in December 1978 we had a series of special services in our church with Gene Forrest. One night when there was prayer for the sick, I went forward and requested prayer for joint and stomach pain.

Brother Forrest, inspired by the Holy Spirit, said, "You have high blood pressure, and God is going to heal you."

As the saints laid hands on me and prayed, God healed me. I was able to kneel and pray with others, something I had been unable to do since knee surgery 2 years previously.

When I went to work the next day, the enemy tried to make me fear I could not make it through the day without medication, but I succeeded.

My doctor, who is a young Christian, rejoiced with me in my healing. He has checked me several times, and my blood pressure is normal without medication or diet control. I work full time and feel better than I had in years."

This article quoted from
THE PENTECOSTAL EVANGEL JANUARY 23, 1972 page 14
Written by Vera Traffanstedt, Bakersfield, Calif.
(Endorsed by Pastor Frank E. Baker, Greenacres First Assembly of God, Bakersfield, Calif.

God never tires of our asking

Infant Healed Of Epilepsy by Renee Campbell

"OUR SON Denny was born October 24, 1977. When he was 5 months old he started having seizures.

We took him to our pediatrician who sent him to a specialist. He was then hospitalized in Walnut Creek, Calif., and later sent to Berkeley for brain scans.

We were told Denny was epileptic. The doctor placed him on medication and said he would have to take it all his life. The medication made him retain fluids which caused him to gain much weight, and he continued to have seizures.

Prayer for Denny was requested in all the full gospel churches in the area.

In June 1978, when he was 8 months old, Denny started having a severe seizure in Sunday school. His daddy took him into the nursery and prayed for him. The seizure stopped.

We believed God had healed him, so we discontinued the medication. He has never had another seizure. He is more than 2 years old now and in perfect health.

We give God all the glory and share this testimony wherever we go."

This article quoted from
THE PENTECOSTAL EVANGEL JULY 13, 1980, page 9
Written by Renee Campbell, Antioch, Calif.
(Endorsed by Rodney White, associate pastor of Riverside Community Church, a Pentecostal Holiness congregation in Rio Vista, Calif.)

If God is your partner
Make your plans LARGE

Woman Healed Of Bladder Ailment
By Carl Lach

"On Saturday morning, March 15, 1986, my wife Linda wakened with a severe bladder ailment. It was so painful she immediately called our family physician at his home. He prescribed some medication and told her to go to the hospital if bleeding persisted. Also he wanted to see her in his office Monday morning.

As I was talking to the Lord that afternoon during my prayer time, He impressed upon my heart to act as His Word instructs:

13 Are any among you suffering? They should keep on praying about it. And those who have reason to be thankful should continually sing praises to the Lord.

14 Are any among you sick? They should call for the elders of the church and have them pray over them, anointing them with oil in the name of the Lord.

15 And their prayer offered in faith will heal the sick, and the Lord will make them well. And anyone who has committed sins will be forgiven.
(James 5:13-15). God had been dealing with me in the area of obedience, so I told my wife what God had instructed me to do.

After several unsuccessful tries to reach our pastor, I called one of the deacons. He agreed to make arrangements. That evening our pastor, James Clark, and two of the deacons, Earl Bliss and Dave Spenser, ministered according to God's Word. They told us if we needed them again, even in the middle of the night, not to hesitate to call.

At 6:30 Sunday morning I wakened and asked my wife how she felt. She said, "I don't know yet. I'm afraid to move."

I went to the kitchen to make some coffee. Soon my wife came down the stairs smiling. She said the pain and bleeding were gone; it was as if it had never happened.

We shared the good news with our pastor and the deacons. I thank God for the godly men who believe God's Word. We have four children, and we all thank God for all He has done for us. Most important is the salvation of our souls and the new life He has given us."

This article quoted from the
Pentecostal Evangel, March 29,1987, page 20
Written by Carl Lach, Demotte, Indiana
Endorsed by Pastor James Clark, Calvary Assembly of God, Demotte, Indiana

In these times of uncertainty
Try God

Angela Is An Answer To Prayer
By Ronald V. Parisi

"Seven years ago God blessed our home with a beautiful little girl named Jennifer. When we decided to have another child 2 years later, we never thought there would be complications, but there were. It was God's goodness that Jennifer was born without any problems.

After about 2 years of trying to have another child, my wife went to several doctors and specialists. She took fertility drugs, which did not work; then she had surgery to remove large cysts that were on her ovaries. We were told there was not much more to be done except for my wife to continue with fertility drugs.

During this time we tried to adopt a child, take care of foster children— everything imaginable. We finally decided maybe it was God's will that we not have any more children. We still believed God could perform a miracle. He had brought us to a place where we couldn't do anything but wait on Him.

After my wife's surgery we took a vacation to my parents' home on Long Island. While there we attended a tent meeting. The pastor who spoke that night had never heard of us. As the service progressed God revealed to him the nature of my wife's condition. He mentioned my wife was being healed at that moment and that within a year God was going to give us another child.

We received the message with trembling, for we knew it was from God. Eleven and a half months later our second daughter, Angela Nicole, was born. She has been a testimony to us and to the people in our church that God really does care about us and our needs.

God has now blessed our home again. A baby boy, Ronald Eugene, was born September 11,1986."

This article quoted from the
PENTECOSTAL EVANGEL, MARCH 29, 1987, page 21
written by Pastor Ronald V. Parisi, Assembly of God, Lancaster, N.H.

No problem is too big for God's power
And
No person is too small for God's love

Delivered Of Plantar Warts
By Julie Balmer

"Early in 1985 my 6-year-old daughter Carolyn began to complain about her feet hurting her. Upon examination I found she had several small warts on her heels and on the ball of her right foot. Some tiny warts were also on her toes. My husband and I prayed for her that evening, asking Jesus to heal her feet.

As time passed, the warts grew larger and more painful. She began to limp. We continued to lay hands on her and pray for her healing.

By spring the warts had grown to the size of peas, so I took her to a podiatrist. He diagnosed her condition as a virus commonly referred to as plantar warts. He admitted they were somewhat difficult and painful to treat. He prescribed a caustic salve rather than surgery and gave instructions for treating the warts and also the callouses that had developed around them.

Carolyn's warts were so sensitive that each treatment grew increasingly more painful for her. After a week or so of listening to my daughter beg me not to get out the medicine anymore, I gave up using the salve. By this time Carolyn had 15 large warts on the soles of her feet with many tiny new growths visible.

I remembered the instructions in James 5:14,15. I called my pastor and requested he give an opportunity for prayer for healing on Sunday morning. The pastor anointed her with oil, and one of the deacons prayed a beautiful prayer of faith for her healing.

We have always shared with our children how willing their loving God is to heal them. I prayed He would honor Carolyn's young yet strong faith and perform a miracle. She checked her feet when we got home from church and tried to hide her disappointment when she found the warts still present and hurting.

That day I purposed in my heart to pray daily for Carolyn's condition, something I had not been diligent in doing.
Luke 18:1-7 encouraged me- the parable of the judge who finally answered the widow's request because of her persistence.

Each night I laid hands on my daughter's feet and cursed the virus in Jesus' name. I would cry out to Jesus to let her feet be whole and healthy. The warts continued to spread, but I didn't give up.

Weeks later I noticed Carolyn wasn't limping. I realized she hadn't complained about her warts in quite awhile. Imagine our tears of rejoicing when we inspected her feet and found every wart gone without a trace of a scar. God is so good.

Through this experience we've learned we must be persistent. We are often tempted to give up praying when we see no immediate result. Second, we learned the absolute importance of doing what God's Word tells us to do."

This article quoted from the
PENTECOSTAL EVANGEL, MARCH 29, 1987, page 22
Written by Julie Balmer, Duluth, Minn.
Endorsed by Pastor R.H. Dean, Glad Tidings Assembly of God, Duluth, Minn.

Prayer is the key of the morning
And
The bolt of the evening

Health and vitality restored
By Mrs. Tom Misiewicz

"IN LATE 1978 I seemed to be tired all the time. At first I thought it was normal weariness from taking care of my family and home and participating in various church-related activities.

Finally, at the urging of family and friends, I went to see a good general practitioner in our area on March 22, 1979. Almost as soon as he examined me, he said, "Has anyone ever said anything to you about fibroid tumors? Your uterus is enlarged, and I think you should see a specialist."

A nurse friend mentioned my symptoms to a nearby specialist in Winchester, Va., who arranged to see me on March 27.

In the meantime I called family members and friends asking for prayer. I spent the next 4 days reading Scripture verses on healing and praying the Lord would spare me from an operation.

Time after time I was assured if I had to have surgery, God would be with me. His Word brought comfort and peace despite disturbing thoughts and fears that clamored to reign in my mind.

After the specialist gave me a thorough examination, he said, "I can find nothing wrong with you. The uterus is normal, and your blood test shows nothing wrong. The only thing I think you need is a good mineral supplement."

Joy filled my heart as the burden of uncertainty and apprehension lifted from me. Instead of the doctor making an appointment for surgery, God in His mercy was giving me renewed physical life.

Jacob once prayed, I am not worthy of the least of all the mercies, and of all the truth, which thou hast showed unto thy servant"
(Genesis 32:10). This is my feeling, and I desire to serve Him more faithfully to show my gratitude."

This article quoted from the
Pentecostal Evangel Magazine, JANUARY 20, 1980, page 21
Written by Mrs. Tom Misiewicz, Martinsburg, W. Va.
(Endorsed by Pastor Jack D. Kinard, Bethel Assembly, Martinsburg, W. Va.)

God promises a safe landing
Not a calm passage

Healed of Cancer
By Bobby

Testimony of the Power of Prayer

"Dear Brother Buttram,

Greetings in the name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. How thankful I am this morning to be able to write and say thank the Lord for what He has done in my life and in the lives of my many loved ones.

Yes Brother Buttram it truly is good to be able to thank God and give Him the glory for what He has done for us. Last fall I called Gospel Tract Society and talked to your son. I told him I wanted you to pray for my mother. She was to be operated on that morning at 9:00 o clock.

The doctors had already told her that they were almost sure from the tests they had run that she had cancer. Praise the Lord for his healing hand. Your son told me you would be remembering her in prayer that day.

At one o'clock that same day she came out of surgery. The doctors couldn't find even a trace of cancer. I thank God he hears us when we pray believing.

She is doing really well and we thank you very much for your prayers of faith.

I would also like to say that I am praying for your ministry and your family.

Yours With Love,

Bobby"
Waldron, Arkansas

"You can receive healing from sickness if you are a child of God: "Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as your soul prospereth"
(3 John 1:2)

"If you are having questions about healing, we have written a tract that will help you titled Would You Be Healed. This tract gives you valuable information on how to be healed and how to stay healed according to God's Word. We would love to pray with you about your needs and to send you this tract so you can receive what is rightfully yours." You can order this tract from the Gospel Tract Society.

This article quoted from the
Gospel Tract Harvester Newsletter, July-August 1986, page 7
Note: the late David Buttram of the Gospel Tract Society was Assemblies of God in his faith.

"For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me in earnest, you will find me when you seek me"
Jeremiah 29:11-13 (NLT)

Healing From Painful Repressed Childhood Memories
by Anonymous

You can heal from painful repressed childhood memories. It's not a short term fix but a long haul journey. My Christian friend received a healing from painful childhood experiences. I write this in case you may be searching for answers. It worked for him and it just may work for you, as well. A Christian should look at this problem as a trial and a challenge to be overcome- and it can be overcome but it is not easy. Are you up to it? You may find it necessary to reach out to a Christian trained professional and/or a good 12-step church or recovery group. Remember, this kind of healing is a journey and takes a lot of time and patience.

He was 46 years old driving an 18 wheeler semi-truck around some narrow canyon roads when he had a flashback of childhood sexual abuse. It shook him up and inadvertantly he nearly ran the truck off of the road because of it. Immediately he knew that because this was emotional trauma he needed to see a psychotherapist or to reach out to someone else for help.

My friend went to a nearby 12-step recovery group for ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics). He telephoned the facilitator of the group beforehand and told him about the sexual abuse that he remembered. The facilitator then told my friend about the sexual abuse that had happened to him as a child also. So my friend was told on the phone that it was ok to talk about sexual abuse at that ACA group, as not all of those groups do so but refer them to an SIA (Survivors of Incest Anonymous) group instead which specializes in childhood sexual trauma. This ACA group really helped my friend a lot.

He attended that ACA group one night a week for 3 years. It was a mixed group of men and women and was well attended with between 12-20 individuals. This group was also well facilitated and provided a safe place to share his "experiences" and receive emotional support.

There was no cross-talk allowed- in other words, when someone was sharing no one was allowed to butt in and talk or interrupt them. My friend had to learn how to be a good listener. He "worked the steps". He learned that he was not an isolated case- that, unfortunately, childhood abuse was rampant. He had to disregard his pride and be humble in order to talk aloud about what happened to him. The more he talked about his "issues" the better he felt. Some individuals in the group cried as they told their story. Some got angry. Some individuals in the group were still partially in denial. It wasn't hard for him to empathize with others who were there to help support him emotionally. He read a lot of the books that group recommended. He learned that toting these repressed memories around with him was called "emotional baggage".

The main goal of this group was to help each individual there believe that he or she was an innocent and significant person- that no way any of the childhood abuse was their fault. The one that was guilty was the perpetrator(s). Each person there was encouraged to do "inner child work" and shift the false blame from themselves back onto the perpetrator(s) who were the truly evil ones. This is called "championing your inner child." This sounds a lot easier than it is. It appears that the ones that did it became more emotionally healthy.

Most competent mental health professionals state that you have to only tell one person, in confidence, in order to share those kinds of memories to shift the blame from you back onto the perpetrator. Some individuals, therefore, only like to see a Christian psychotherapist or Christian counselor who is trained in the sexual abuse or the sexual trauma field, as not all of them are.

THE EMERGENCY STAGE

She was a beautiful adult Christian women just hitting menopause. She had a husband and grown children. She had flashbacks of childhood sexual abuse. She was in the emergency stage. She couldn't handle all of the pain and memories of betrayal. She took a gun and blew her brains out. Beware of the emergency stage- it's probably the toughest part to overcome.

Let me tell you about what happened to my friend when he hit his emergency stage. For him it lasted about 3 months. This is a period of time when the repressed memories first "pop loose" or "start to surface" from the subconscious mind into the conscious mind. Accompanying the surfacing or defrosting memory are all the repressed emotions of the incident(s) such as false guilt, anger, terror, pain, confusion, and more- intruding into one's conscious mind. What does one do with with all of this pain that they are re-feeling after all these years? What does one do with all of these thoughts of betrayal by a family member, trusted family friend, or other trusted individual? How does one handle all of the anger that he or she now has about this? Those are some tough choices one has to make.

During the emergency stage is when some folks commit suicide due to these overwhelming circumstances of the past. Suicide is not the right choice. This is the stage when an individual can be most emotionally fragile. For some, the constant pain and memories just keep on coming for week after week, month after month with no seeming relief in sight. One's mind is saturated with pain. Dormant emotions seem to come alive again in an intense way. Sadness and anger are two prominant ones. My friend knew he had been nearly emotionally destroyed as a child. He could barely stand this kind of internal stress as an adult and then he could understood how, as a child, his brain had to repress it so he could emotionally survive back then. My friend likened it to "emotionally going through a long black tunnel of pain and not finding the immediate exit". He didn't think that he would ever see the end of the tunnel when all of this would end, but he held on. He got support from His God, his 12-step group, and from his wife. He was emotionally burned out and emotionally devastated during this time and had to take time off of work for awhile in order to heal and properly deal with all of this. But his emergency stage did end- he did come to the end of that tunnel.

My friend took his problems to His Wonderful Counselor, Jesus Christ, Who helped him get through this period of time in his life. He leaned on the Lord and the Lord did not let him down. At the meetings he referred to His Lord as his Higher Power. A physician or psychiatrist may prescribe some medication for you to help you during this difficult time. Unfortunately, some people may turn to illegal drugs but this is not the way to go. It's suspected that this kind of intense anger can be misdirected toward others to include road rage, school shootings, "family tragedies", etc. My friend beat his pillow on his bed with his belt as a harmless means of working through some of his anger. He didn't want to ever dump a lot of destructive anger on any of his innocent family members.

A lot of divorces can happen during this time. Don't dump any anger on your spouse because your spouse did not cause your childhood abuse. Divorces also happen because of the mistaken notion that your spouse is responsible for making you happy. That's not true in any shape or form. Do you know who is responsible for making you happy? That's right- you are. You are responsible for making yourself happy- happiness has to come from within yourself. Learn to have fun. Trust yourself to make you happy. You might want to work on a favorite hobby. Enjoy simple fun activities that help relieve stress. Maybe going to an amusement park, a zoo, or the beach would help. You need to be able to have fun again without your new emotional problems getting in the way. A good massage is relaxing. Walking and exercise help relieve stress. My friend learned how to do all of this and it was neat to see him spend money on himself in what I would refer to as "childish ways". He found it easier to relate to the younger children in his family because he took them to places where they could all play and have fun together.

My friend healed up nicely in time. He properly worked through all of "his issues". After all of this "emotional pus" was finally cleared out of his brain he quit having migraine headaches that he had suffered with for years. His back quit seizing up on him due to anxiety reactions from unresolved inner conflicts. His nervous stomach nearly returned to normal. Some physical ailments that he had (caused by repressed anger) disappeared.


(Please be advised that any medical statements regarding repressed memories and their cure mentioned here are the opinions of Kraig J. Rice)

How Does This Work?

In my opinion God created the human mind with a built-in "circuit breaker switch" so to speak to protect it from overload. In electricity a fuse will blow out or a circuit breaker switch will activate or kick out when there is a short circuit or power overload. This action protects the unit from getting destroyed and/or catching fire or both. The human brain does much the same thing. When a horrible event happens to a child they can't handle he or she may disassociate and repress that memory (along with the emotional feelings associated with that memory) as a means of survival. In other words it the brain's way of blowing a fuse or tripping a circuit breaker. It's the mind's way of protecting itself. If this has happened to you don't feel like an isolated case- it has happened to millions of others as well.

Whether it is a one time trauma incident or incidents over a period of time the brain may repress it all and block it out of the conscious mind. The brain exerts a tremendous amount of energy to keep these memories repressed year after year. Well, your brain gets tired of suppressing those memories (and when it is safe to do so) it lets those memories intrude into your conscious mind. Sometimes this happens when an individual is close to mid-life crisis. That's why it is called a crisis. Some say that most of these occurances happen around the time of mid-life crisis, thus indicating a general time frame for many individuals.

This intrusion can be quite unwelcome and unwanted. However, there is no set age for any individual when this might happen. When this happens to some individuals around male or female menopause it's the cause of some to re-live and re-feel childhood memories. That is why mid-life crisis is also called one's "second childhood." These events happen to Christians and non-Christians alike. This is what happened to my Christian friend at age 46 as he was driving his semi-truck on the narrow road that day.

My friend had a favorite scripture that he hung onto that helped him through those tough days regarding this kind of trial:

"Everyone who overcomes (is victorious) will eat from the tree of life in the paradise of God."
Revelation 2:7 (NLT)

The Lord Jesus Christ will walk with you holding your hand each step of the way if you let Him and don't hurt Him by blaming Him for what the devil did to you. God knows your circumstances. God is not offended by our anger or strong emotions during our healing process. He loves us and wants to help us.

At present there are many Christian professionals to help you in any way that you want. Some of the larger churches offer their own "12 step program". My friend visited one of these at the large (Assemblies of God) Capitol Christian Center in Sacramento, Calif. He was really impressed at how they could help folks there receive their healing.

There are several Christian books available to help you with your emotional healing. I recommend going to a Christian bookstore in your hometown and seeing what is available for you there. Joyce Meyer, the television pastor, has an emotional healing kit and video advertized on her web site. She healed from childhood emotional abuse so she knows what she is talking about. She also has a book available titled, Beauty For Ashes. Gary Chapman has written on this subject. Also Neil Anderson has written The Bondage Breaker as well as Victory Over the Darkness.


My friend went to another large church that was offering a course on emotional healing. This course was the Search For Significance offered by Rapha. This course promotes the idea of personal self-love, self-esteem and self-worth to counter-act the lies that Satan and his perpetrators made to any child while they were abusing him or her. If you don't live close to any large church that offers this course you can order the book(s) from them personally.

I really respect my friend and I am proud of him for keeping his faith in the midst of all of the doubt and pain, and for having the courage to face his pain and deal with it in a responsible way to obtain his healing.

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